Alex and C2H, Thank you for taking the time to think about my current dilemma and to ofer such pertinent suggestions.It's great to turn to this board and to be the recipient of sage advice. Alex,I 've also been a great one at suggesting "list making" to analyze pros vs. cons and to initiating prioritizing.You are right,I need to do this now. C2H,your male perspective is invaluable and your spiritual emphasis, comforting. Perspective is so important in life and I know I have been losing that key element to sanity. Anxiety has led me to "catastrophize" my current situ!
My H is used to my taking care of everything with the children,house,pets,bills etc. and tends to resist doing the "hard stuff".However,he has,with my encouragement, been tutoring our son in the PM's.I have been trying to compliment him and seek his advice and I do see a glimmer of hope.I realize I have been guilty of trying to protect H and now am overwhelmed with handling everything myself. It is ironic that my journey has come full circle and now I am back in the primary role of "the homemaker".The difference now is that H WANTS it this way, in order to take care of son's problems.In the past,he thought I had an easy life raising the children and working only as a consultant,while he struggled in the corporate "shark tank".He had married a successful career woman and he resented my changing roles.Why did it take so much heartache and suffering to prove to him that I could restart my career any time and be successful outside our home.Why did it take the troubles of our children to make him realize what an asset he had at home.It's about respect.
