Seems your faith's gotten a bit stronger since those journal entries. And you seem to have stopped kicking yourself . . ..
But enough of all that . . . what plans for the Memorial Day weekend? Is there a parade in your town? Maybe grill yourself a burger? (I definitely plan to do that!)
I hope my faith is stronger, and less in myself being able to win her back myself and all in God working it through.
This weekend I am going to see my D19 and repair holes the EXW put in walls moving in furniture. Did not want the jerk to do it. So that is the whole weekend
Oh, W called and wants to keep Rose for the weekend. That will interfere with her plans I am sure. But whatever.
Glad to see that your faith is still so strong - I always admired you for that. This is a long journey we are on, but with God at our side, it can be quite pleasant.
Thanks for your comment. I don't feel like my faith is very strong sometimes. Of late I have felt very defeated, which in a way I am. I struggle with having the faith that God will restore my marriage if it is His will. I think it is His will based on my beliefs in the Word. And because I don't see how it could happen now, and I realize that I can not make that happen, it is completely His work now and for His Glory.
Should I have expectations? that God will do this. Expectations...hope....a fine line it seems.
You are so right though about the walk with God. How I missed that when in my own MLC....oh, I thought I was still walking with Him, but I really was not. I am enjoying the communion with Him more than I ever have...maybe because I am old. And in praying for my friends on this board brings me so close to them. I rejoice in your triumphs, cry in your trials.
Have a wonderful weekend and thanks for stopping by.
I was distracted during the lesson study this morning before church. We have talked of waiting on the Lord and Psalm 40 and 41 caught me today. Please hurry Lord ( do not delay) David asks.
I waited patiently for the LORD. He turned to me and heard my cry for help. 2 He pulled me out of a horrible pit, out of the mud and clay. He set my feet on a rock and made my steps secure. 3 He placed a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see this and worship. They will trust the LORD. 4 Blessed is the person who places his confidence in the LORD and does not rely on arrogant people or those who follow lies. 5 You have done many miraculous things, O LORD my God. You have made many wonderful plans for us. No one compares to you! I will tell others about your miracles, which are more than I can count..... 16 Let all who seek you rejoice and be glad because of you. Let those who love your salvation continually say, "The LORD is great!" 17 But I am oppressed and needy. May the Lord think of me. You are my help and my savior. O my God, do not delay! or in another version: Lord, because I am poor and hlepless, please remember me. You are my hleper and Savior. My God, do not wait.
Sunday morning I was going to leave early to go see D19 and repair the holes in her walls that the OM put there. W (ex) wanted to keep the dog and I was supposed to call her when I left. She called early (I was getting ready) and we talked for an hour. Mostly about our daughter and stuff like that. A couple times she would say she needed to let me get going but then would talk some more.
The dog was back in my office when I arrived. Don't know how long she was there. W is not in her car, it is shined up sitting in front of her office. My mind can make up all kinds of scenarios about that, but none would I know to be the truth.
Had a nice weekend with D in her new town home. Contractors today really do __ity jobs of building. Her friend two doors down complained that her a/c was not working...I checked it and told her to call the contractor and have them install a cold air return. That poor furnace was trying but they never cut the hole for the grill and filter so NO air was going through it. Unreal.
On the road for 4 hours each was leaves one with time to think and pray. Many of you were the subject during those times.
Thanks, I did add one but considering the length of the call should add a couple.
Today I saw her drive by and then turn right at the next street. It was time for me to leave for lunch and had a stop at the PO also. That is where she was leaving from as I pulled up. That means she drove by on purpose Also threw up my hand to wave at her coming down the street after that.
Did you not love the email from Judy today. That was so encourageing about the nine divorced men in his group. Wow!!
Also threw up my hand to wave at her coming down the street after that.