Looking over my notes in a journal I kept for talking with the DB coach a year ago: May 19, 2005 Last night we talked about us, OM and her, the This will be my last entry and I am positive she will not change her mind. She is thankful that I gave her an out as she said that she was never the right match for me. Now she needs to find out who she is and will be able to without the baggage of myself. I have been such a fool to think that love could conquer all and that God and His example of forgiveness could mend a shattered relationship. If there was a chance for us it is shattered now thanks to yours truly.
I sense more now the how desparate she was to get rid of me and on with her life especially with OM. I could always tell when she had talked to him.
This afternoon I went to see FIL and remember I told him his D divorced me? Well, he said it had been a couple days now,had I gotten married yet. I said not, that I was waiting for his D to say yes to a proposal again. MIL came by (had been gone all week and not visiting him which explains why he was so disturbed), I suggested we take him out to eat, so we did, then went for a drive, got some fudge bars, and then back to the home. Saw the house FIL grew up in--he recognized it immediately and remembered lots of stuff. He asked me if I thought he was ever going to be any good again.
MIL came by (had been gone all week and not visiting him which explains why he was so disturbed), I suggested we take him out to eat, so we did, then went for a drive, got some fudge bars, and then back to the home. Saw the house FIL grew up in--he recognized it immediately and remembered lots of stuff. He asked me if I thought he was ever going to be any good again. 
