I am so glad to hear that everything is going well Jenny!!! I am so happy for you. Tomorrow I go to meet with a lawyer since the court has ordered us to a conference since neither my husband or I have done anything as far as the divorce is concerned. My husband (who is 32) has been diagnosed with High Blood Pressure and he has been suffering panic attacks due to stress or depression. While I am not happy that his health is suffering, it is ironic that he left me and wanted to be happy and now he seems to be falling apart. I saw him last week and all he could do was put himself down and tell me that I should be with a lawyer or a doctor because I was intelligent, sophisticated, and beautiful. He says that our different shifts did not help our marriage and he cannot imagine me going through all of that again (being married but only seeing him one hour a day and on the weekends). He said is that what you want? Well I would still love for my husband to wake up and come home to me and work on our marriage, but at the same time I think his job is tearing him apart (both physically and mentally) and I would love it if he left there and got another job, even if the pay was less. He says that he cannot get another job that pays that much, but like I told him, money is not everything. If your health goes, what does the money matter. Anyway, I will reluctantly go to the lawyer tomorrow and see what I need to do to protect myself financially, but at the same time I will still pray for myself, my husband, and our marriage. I really do not think he will wake up until we are divorced and then he would probably never come back. Like he said again last week, You would never look at me the same and your family would never look at me the same way. I am just rambling but I thought I would tell you all a few things that are going on. I swear sometimes it seems like he is rethinking this whole mess and then he will go and act like he is not. It is so confusing. Best wishes to you all and wish me luck.
