Hi everyone!! Thanks for asking about me. I am sorry that I have not been responding or posting lately. I don't have time to post as I have got to leave work right now and go take care of a million things that are going on in my life, but I will post more later.
Just to let you know, I am not doing too good. My husband has spoken with Michelle's associate and was going to again and then did not have his number and did not and now this week he is going to call him again. He flip flops alot on what he is doing. He even told me he would consider calling the divorce off, but now it seems like he is not going too. I will write more and tell you more of what was said later. All in all I am just really upset and having lots of backslides every time I talk to him. It is just that when I feel like I am losing something I want to try to hold on to and say "Dammit don't you see that all of this stuff you are saying is you being confused even though you say you are and then you say you aren't." I know it does not help him to see it but I just don't want to lose him. He was (is) a great person that has "changed." His words (the changed part.)
For other drama in my life, our house was broken into one night while he was at work and I was supposed to be at the house but I was not. The police think it was possibly a neighbor or one of his friends as there have been other houses broken into. They took all of the "little" things that they could get ahold of. Now me and my husband are dealing with insurance papers and divorce papers. I will say that the day that I walked in and found the house robbed I called him and he came home right away and we spoke for a few hours and the talk was very good and he cried and I did a little also. He even checked up on me that night-he actually walked off the line at work )he works in a factory) and called me to see if I was doing ok and if someone was going to stay with me because he was worried. Well a few days after that and he is back to being distant again. Go figure.
Anyway, I will write more later. I will tell you that one of my husbands concerns to Michelle's associate was that I was makaing all of these changes and he was afraid that they would not last. I thought that meant there was ambivalence, but now he does not seem confused at all.
Any advice or words of wisdom or just good thoughts I would appreciate. Thank you all soooooooooo much!!!! May God Bless all of you!!!
