WAW - Worth sticking it out?

[RBinBR]

I'm so in trouble here - how do you compete with that?

You don't. Don't try to be anything other than the man you truly are.

These R talks are not helping you. I would strongly suggest avoiding them in the future.

telling her how I've dealt with depression, seen the possibilities, etc. I was led in that direction by her, and refusing to go there would've been a mistake when she wanted to.

Telling her these things is meaningless at best and counterproductive at worst. Focus on GAL and let her see the changes in you -- don't talk about them. In fact, I would advise you to stop talking about your life at all. Let her get curious and ask others about you, while you create an air of mystery.