I just wanted to thank everyone for their advice and encouragement, especially you Jenny. I know that I can always come back here and read what you all have wrote to me and try to keep things in perspective. Especially when everyone around me is telling me to tell my H how I feel and that I am sad and to tell him to come home right now to work on this marriage or to just get the D over with and let me move on. Did you all have friends and family that did this to you? How did you deal with it?
Also my other question is yesterday I was standing there looking at my H while he was talking and I was thinking "Who are you and what did you do with my husband?" It was almost as if I could not remember the good times and as I was looking at him it was like I was not looking at my H. Is that something that you all ever experienced or am I just losing my mind? I would really like your thoughts on this becuase I was thinking if I am looking at him and having a hard time "seeing" my H in there and I am the one that has stayed and wants to work on this marriage, then what is he thinking when he looks at me? No wonder he possibly feels like he loves me like a sister.
Also, if it ever stops raining here in KY then he will be by this week to mow the grass, maybe tomorrow or Thursday and I was wondering if you all think that it would be better if I was just not home for lunch when he comes by and then that way he will just not get to see me. I know that he needs to see me at some point to keep the interest or whatever, but should I just not be at home and tell him that lunch plans came up and maybe I will see him another time? Please give me your all's advice since he may be coming tomorrow and he said today on the phone "See you tomorrow". As if he knows that I will be home for lunch. (I only live 5 minutes from work so I do go home for lunch everyday).
