Jenny, I'm glad to hear that you are doing well! Congratulations!! I want to thank you for your help. I had emailed you with some questions and your responses helped me tremendously.
My h moved out of our home last weekend. During early May, I had informed him that I was moving out of the house. The next day I came home and he informed me that he had rented an apartment.
His EA has turned into a physical relationship about 6 wks ago. We live in Chicago, she lives in Detroit. Today I did call her and just chatted with her for a half hour. It was a pleasant conversation. I am not upset with her at all, because I realize that it has nothing to do with her. Maybe that is naive, but if it weren't her, it would just be someone else. Yes, it does hurt, but I am trying to detach and realize that this is happening for a reason. My h is still running. He left his first marriage via an affair, and that is what he is doing now.
I get so confused at times. Like today, he sent me a magazine subscription to Mademoisel (sp). Why does he do that? In my gut I don't believe that he wants this divorce.
The majority of the time I turn my anxiety over to God. In general, (to the people in my life and H) I know I am being more patient, more loving and caring, doing the things I need to do for myself. H has filed for divorce and wants to get it over now. I am stalling and don't want to sell our dream home. But I also don't want to hold him if he truly doesn't want to be with me. What ideas do you have? Should I stall on the d, but put the house up for sale. Should I just go through with the d?
