Don't get me wrong. I savor every moment of affection she gives me and despite her words I seem to be getting much more from her than many of the people in these forums so I consider that to be a positive sign.
?It is bittersweet though and at times extremely painful. If it wasn't for the books, I beleive I would have already quit. Everytime I think about quitting I start readingsome more. It doesn't take me long to come across something in the book that I can relate to that makes me understand whats going on a little bit better and makes me feel strong again. I also know that even if we never get it back together, this entire experience has tought me a lot about myself and relationships. Which ever way this turns out I know I will be better able to cope with the situation.
