Quote: i dont want to put anything in your head,but there were many times my W even went to the point of crying while telling me nothing was going on,and i believed her only to be let down again and again.Im not saying your W is not telling the truth,im just saying down let your guard down all the way.
Deejay, I think buried in yesterday's posts there is my assertion that my guard is indeed still up to a certain extent. Her telling me I can trust her is not enough. Her kinda showing me she can be trusted for a little while is not enough either. It will take longer for trust to become a reality for me. Thanks for the concern.
Quote: but i don't think there is any way i would be back home right now if i hadn't left.
We each take out own road in this. For many, staying at home with the WAS, or having them stay with you, is the much harder path to take. I understand that very well. There were MANY times when I would read threads around here where there was actual physical separation and be jealous because at some points in all this, I would have given anything not to have to see her on a daily basis. For me though, I understood that IF I was going to live with her AND try to make this work, I had to fully commit to DB and try as hard as I could to practice it's principles with everything I had. To do otherwise would have almost certainly meant failure on many levels. So, I get what you are saying and would not disagree with you. For many, the separation, while painful as hell, is also the saving grace. Of course, when it's going on it never seems that way but I can assure you, there are just as many drawbacks to living with the WAS as being separated.
