Welcome back to earth. I am sitting here and crying while I type this, cuz you have made it safely back to earth. I know I don't know you but, I want to say that I love you for realizing and admitting to your crisis.
My H has just thrown me for another loop. Last month he is saying thing like to be exact that he will be home sooner than I think. Last night and today he is saying he won't be home, he had made his decision. Just last week, he was measuring our bedroom so, that he can put up panelling. In January, he booke a cottage for the summer season for us. This is so confusing to me. He knows, because I have told him and show him that I love him with all my heart. H says he can't love me until he loves himself. Also, said he still sees ow at the bar if she is there. They are good friends and talk. Tells me only cuz I asked there is no sex, cuz she put a stop to it.
He comes here often cuz we have two small children. He has even taken me out a couple of times in the past month. He has also spent 2 entire weekends at our place in the past month. He will not tell me he loves me. Says he has feelings for me but doesn't know what kind of feelings. He has admitted that he likes tho ow, cuz she is fun.
I just don't know what to do. I have been dbing my buns off and done a complete 180. One day I have a lot of confidence that things are improving greatly, then one day he says he doesn't want to come home. To back off and leave him alone. Stop interfering with his life, cuz it is none of my business what he does in his own private life.
He is 47yrs old and we have been married 24 years. Separated since last April. Why oh why do you think he is teeling things one day and then something completely different the next. I just don't know what to believe. When I told him to stop lying to me about these things, he said he doesn't consider them lies.
Can you give me any insight?
Again John, welcome back to earth and your new life with Johnswife. I admire you for coming to this board. I think that you now realize that you have one teriffec woman. YOU are very lucky.
PS: Last night I showed him an article on depression. You had to answer 20 questions. He said he answered yes to all of them. Then he said you could probably answer yes to most of them also. This is what got us on to OR talk. He doesn't like to discuss anything about this, he likes to to act like everything is okay and that I have accepted it. Unfortunately, I don't have a choice. I have to accept it.
[This message has been edited by Patience (edited 03-10-2000).]
