well jo, i found your thread. had to search. i don't come to this thread much these days. i really want to but it is not the place for me now and probably never will be.

your advice is good. wish i had it yesterday. i will try again. maybe next week. he really has no desire to see me or spend time with me even if it is to talk about nothing. i know we will have to sign the taxes...i could invite him then....but you know his comment, 'it has to come from me.' he really wants out or at least doesn't want to be married right now. i think you are so wise the way you handled things. i wish i was wiser earlier. i know i have to think of the worst scenerio and it is happening right before my eyes. i want to fight for this marriage but you need two people who believe it in. your story about you h coming back is much like my h's return five years ago...he started coming by and in two weeks he was back. that was his way of trying....there have been too many lies along the way and there is no point in bringing them up since h has a selected memory. if only he could see how wonderful it would be to start anew but with the knowledge we have. he is a stubborn man...definite in his decision. i can wait...but for how long.

bell is ringing...last class of the day. i will write tonight. still no notice from db about e-mail addresses. we must try again.

ronnie