Chelsea: thanks for caring. i am posting here and sometimes on INS....i really don't belong here but i have bonded with some of these people and their knowledge, you included, is so valuable. i will probably never belong here and maybe it is time to switch to surviving d since that is the direction my j is running to. i just posted on your topic keeping ron afloat...i am confused, i talk to h but when i say what is happening he defaults and says talk to you later. i think he has started the process...gut feeling. my kids want me to go already...but like i wrote in the other thread...i am not ready and the sad part is, i may never be ready. i am a good person (old...and believe me being 55 and single is not going to be fun) who is loving and kind...oh, i am very insecure and need to be needed and loved more than most people..i have high expectations for the people i love and care about..and honesty is very important to me...but this fear of being alone is taking over my entire persona.
keep in touch...i am up for individual e-mails as well.
how are things in your life. the trust thing was not as hard for me the last time since he was so sincere (believe it or not) about this never happening again and about us living happily ever after. i guess i have always believed in him...and that is part of my problem. i trusted him and his love. one thing i know, don't ask him questions about ow and affair...they don't like to talk about it....ever.
