So many people here understand how you feel - I think it's nearly impossible to not go through these emotional waves, and I don't know that any of the really bad spots are offset by anything really good. The frame of mind our spouses are in is probably similar, but it's no consolation. As over-said as it is, you just have to root around in your mind to find some positive things, and maintain control over your thoughts to keep from "wallowing". All this DB effort amounts to SOMEDAYS is a way of keeping your dignity and pride - worth doing no matter what! On the other hand, it isn't a wasted effort on the ones we love, either - kids or spouses. Tomorrow probably won't be the day everything changes, but a little might change every day and get you your reward - which you deserve. Hang in there - you can only control yourself, and it WILL be noticed.
