Well, my W came home drunk, again. She was dropped off around the corner and came in through the side garage door to avoid me. So much for "running into a girlfriend" as her mother said. *shrug* Our dog was barking, giving her entry away and I had my S in my arms trying to calm him. I saw her and even in the dark I could see her swaying and could tell that she was drunk. I said, "Oh, Sweetie, let me help you to you bedroom." She kept insisting she was NOT drunk as she staggered down the hallway and wanted me to get the <bleep> out.
I told her, you can call me a lot of things, but an irresponsible parent is not one of them. She wanted me to hand our S to her while she was standing. I told her I will as soon as you sit down. She did, so I handed our S to her. She only swore at me more and again told me to get out. She told me, "You think your a big help when you come here 2 nights a week. I deal with this (our fussy S) all the time. I asked her, "Drunk?" Mumbled response. I assured I would leave as soon as she had a little time to sleep and sober up.
I also told her, you have options. She said what are they? I told her, "You can give in to the fact that I am on the other end of the house or you can call the police and let them decide who is fit, right now, to be with our children. I handed her the phone and she started dialing, probably calling her date of the evening. I am still waiting for the police response.
I'll be here about another 3 hours. She'll be sober enough by then for me to feel comfortable to leave her as the "responsible" (again, riiiiight!!) adult here alone with our children. I told her that we can talk about her issues with me tomorrow when she is sober. She just swore at me more. The anger of my A has not dissipated one bit. It's usually much worse when she drinks.
Ahhh, drinking. ALL of her adult socializing is focuses around drinking. Again, she spent 12 years going to A.A. to stay sober from drugs (her ailment). Shen less that 2 years ago, decided she was not an alcoholic and began drinking. The drinking is our of hand in my estimation, but who am I to say, I am just the AH cheater trying to control her and ruin her single fun in her mind. Again, the narcissistic personality disorder rears its ugly head, made worse by adding alcohol.
Again, I go back to my MIL who lied for my W and who told me that she said to my W, "Go home in an hour. Be a good girl." Riiiiiight. It's ok. I believe her shenanigans are going to peter out. She'll get tired and lonely of running from the man who keeps "being there."
Thanks to Amy's support and direction, I am much closer to forgiving myself and honoring the power of the cross, thus I am better able to answer her requests from a position of strength and what is "right" instead of guilt. Before I began posting and reading posts on this BB I was lost. I am no longer lost. I am becoming a strong, more balanced, right thinking, level headed man. My W may benefit from my changes if she decides to, my children and I will regardless of what happens in my M. Thank you all for reading my long winded posts and offering direction, insight, and support.
