In this case, I think I am more of an "angel matchmaker", having hooked you up with Amy, lol. I am really glad you are doing well. Keep it up! Enjoy the good days, gain strength from the bad ones remember that this is only PART of life. No matter WHAT happens, your strength and ability to achieve personal growth will increase because of this. That may be of little real comfort but eventually, it WILL be the truth that you come to understand.