I need help staying on my feet; LONG post, sorry

[Still_Standing]

Occasionally in the past, I have seen an additional line tacked onto the Serenity Prayer:
"God grant me the courage not to give up on what I think is right even though I think it is hopeless."
How appropriate to your sitch.

AMEN. I often feel hopeless when I am missing my W and my children. Then I remind myself, it ain't over til it's over and I am reminded what I need to do by memories of the scene from "Moonstruck" when Nicholas Cage is professing his love for Cher and she hauls off and smacks him yelling, "SNAP OT OF IT!!" Well, I sometimes need to give my NMA (negative mental attitude) a smack so my PMA will have room to manuever and work it's magic in me.

Your little girl said a mouthful when she said you are her joy. That sent chills down my spine when I read it.
THAT is EXACTLY what God wants US to say to Him!!
Out of the mouths of babes......you are truly blessed.

She stopped me in my tracks and made me cry. I still well up whenever I relive that moment. I love my children more than I will ever be able to adequately express.

AND you have a pro-marriage friend who supports you and lifts you up!! Good Lord, HH, you have so much more than many of the people on this board have....amazing.

I am blessed. I love that man and cherish our friendship. He supports me without judgement. Thank you for pointing out my good fortune, dear Amy.

You have an opportunity every single day to show your wife the new you.

I will nurture myself and our children, get my own place, GAL, and utilize the LRT to the best of my understanding and ability. I will make myself a stronger, more nurturing, more well-rounded, hopeful romantic, and I will definitely add your line: "God grant me the courage not to give up on what I think is right even though I think it is hopeless" to the end of my Serenity Prayer. That last line really touches my heart and soul.

Blessed indeed.
Yes you are.

I am more blessed because I have my angel, Amy in my corner supporting me in such a caring way. THANK YOU SO MUCH, AMY!

The support I receive from all of the posters who so unselfishly give of themselves and of their time is greatly appreciated. Please keep me on the DB path should I stray. I certainly know it's easy for me to stray when I am hurting and I may end up being overly ambitious and impatient in trying to bend God's will to mine rather than being patient, kind, loving, respectful and honest towards my W. I owe that to her. Patience is the real challenge for me. I am working at it, though.

I strive to be a better person today than I was yesterday, day after day. I look at this as a marathon, and I am not only am going to finish strong, I am going to WIN! Strength and Honor!