The most recent portion of my saga. I work for my MIL who decided that despite my A and troubles with my W, that I am a valuable employee who makes her business run smoother. Anyway, my W, due to my A, has decided to come back to work for her mother, so now we work together again. Not the most ideal situation. Today was day one of working with my S again and it really threw me off balance. However, I was able to recover w/o any major blowups, but it reminded me of problems in our M that need to be worked out should she decide to work on our M. I was also reminded of the 5 things that I owe my wife, especially now: 1. patience 2. love 3. kindness 4. resect 5. honesty
The two most important ones right now for me, especially while working with her, are kindness and respect. I assured my S that I will treat her with respect and kindness at work and asked that she afford me the same. She said she would. I hope she will.
I have asked my co-workers to remind me to breathe when I am looking tense. They will help me stay centered and calm. My co-workers told me that I handled the stress and tension really well today. One gentleman told me that not only did I do really well, I am an inspiraton to him for how I am handling my situation with calmness and love. They know I love her and that I am in a battle for GOOD; a battle to save my M and preserve my family.
I have a good friend who supports my efforts to save my M. He has enough PMA to spare some to prop me up when I feel weak. He always gives to me. He has been my rock. He truly believes that my M will survive and thrive. I often tell him I wish I had his certainty about my situration, but his certainty is infectious. I love that man for being there for me, for supporting my efforts, for being my friend. You see, most people I know are not PRO-marriage. He is PRO-marriage and pro-ME. I thank God that I have a friend like him.
Well, that's it for right now. I'll be journaling daily for a while. Thanks for listening. STRENGHT AND HONOR!
