I feel for you. I am in almost exactly same situation. I have not got much help or advice,(thanks GH) but am trying all I can to keep us together. I will follow your situation, and hopefully find some useful help here also. We both screwed up, and we both love and want to keep our spouses. I havent got DB yet, but have read DR and there is not much advice to our side of the situation. Phone consult has helped some, and local counselor is someone to vent to, but no clear path to follow to find way back to the heart.......