OK lets spin F4W around and watch him stumble to the ground. LOL

Let me elaborate. The night out is for her best friends B-day and is with other woman I trust. I do believe that this will be a test, but am trying not to plan a course of attack or predetermine the outcome of that night. In reality, I need to let it happen, like I would have any say in the matter.

Heather, I hear you. I have been doing so. Made the comment last night as I was BBQing, that her perfume smelled wonderful and left it at that.

Karen, I am going to approach the phone thing with wife as requesting that there is a time that the kids call so we can talk. That leaves it up to her if she wants to get on and talk with me.

As to the initiating, part of that is just plain ol male desire (no offense to those with LD husbands out there) and a screaming case of stiffness in the crotch rocket and coupled with a growing diagnosis of blueballitis. Not trying to focus on that, but it really stems from my desire to be with my wife, I know you all no the feeling.

I honestly can say in the past one of the downfalls of our sex life was initiating to see if she was here. Now I can say it is truly horininess and desire for my wife. This may in fact be stemming from something that may have been lost temporarily or permanently on our present course. This is the longest that we have gone without having sex in over a year and is very close to the way we were living when I had thoughts of pulling up anchor and sailing away.

Self relief is not becoming an attractive option anymore. Good for temporary fix but not good in long run. I find myself actually feeling abit resentful that I am engaging in that when I should be with my wife.

Rambling along,

F4W

Through honest giving of my love I will recieve 10 fold in return.

Just because a person does not love you in the way you want, does not mean they do not love you!