JW and everyone else: HELP! Found out today for sure that h ..it is the big hospital gossip both here in town and at the other hospital where h works most of the time. i called him on this tonight (BIG MISTAKE) he was even at his place when he called me. told me to stop bothering him and he doesn't have to tell me anything. he asked what i wanted and i said the truth and he said he is afraid of my behavior and that i would tell people...of course everyone knows but he thinks they don't. found out this has been going on for months and she left her h and kids for my h...then he hung up on me. i paged him..(another mistake) and he called back and said i should see a lawyer...sure here in ny he has no grounds to file and her divorce is probably almost done and he wants to go out with her in public...they have to be careful now or she will lose visitation. he has told his cousin he doesn't care if he has to give me more than half of everything and take care of me forever....he is unhappy and is NEVER coming home. what do i do...take off my ring...file...die...and the worst part is i would take him back but he would probably do this again...i am not strong. there is no life without him and the children. i am crying too hard to write...i wrote on the other thread on MLC about something like "To Ronmom"....i am so unrealistic....i think i knew all this deep down inside but couldn't admit it...and then after the SBT appt. yesterday and this morning i felt so confident there was hope but there is none. guess it is time to read the thread about divorce....i would rather die.
