Chelsea: what is your story. i will check the threads. are you and h together again. my h told his cousin last night (she talks to him about our relationship all the time since she can not understand...she is his cousin but my friend for years) and he said he is not coming home...ever. he said that five years ago when we were separated...but after six months he began to come around. might have been the kids....whatever...but he is so definite and firm now and that scares me. somedays my guts say it is over and other days i have hope. i called him this a.m...since i had to get up for school he should have gotten up even tho it is his day off...he laughed...yet i fear he will contact the lawyer on a day off where he has nothing to do. fear is part of my problem too...fear, emptiness, loneliness and unhappiness.
i am trying you guys...i have hit the bottom and now i must begin the climb up but i cant even get a footing to start.
