Tension seems to have been building between myself and a couple busiess partners. There are some outside influences doing this and my lack of being around to stop it in it's tracks has contributed.
Yesterday I was angry at the situation and decided to make the drive to go clear the air with them.. Now as is my nature I get worked up and very angry at a situation and if I let a little time pass by I get very sensible about it and deal with it in a very sensible and productive way.
So my wife sent me off to "Beat them all". she even wrote me a note of things to do and on the note was "beat them all". Anyone who is new to my thread might not know that the business I am in is a very aggressive form of Kung Fu and I'm the top dog. But I'm a very mello nice guy.
So I went of and handled the situation very well. Things turned out well.
So when I got home my wife had tried to cook dinner (I do the cooking) and turned a 15 lb turkey into a 3 lb chicken. Funny. She had obviously had a couple glasses of wine. She was extremely interested in how badly I had beaten them into submission and wanted stories of me inflicting pain on them. She even told me to lie to her if I hadn't beaten them and just tell her I did.
She then recounted stories of how she had dealt with the bad people in her day and how productive she was. She had dealt with some of them harshly and told me the stories over and over and over. And I actively listened over and over and over. Although she was very unnaffectionate to me when I first got there she seemed to warm up as I listened.
She told me about a conversation with her dad. Her dad had been by before and asked why I seemed upset on my way out. She explained it like so.
"Xue is the alpha dog but he's a really nice guy. He has to go up and knock all the other dogs around. Smash some skulls together. He can do that but he hates it. He's going to learn the hard way that nice guys finish last"
This was repeated several times.
Now What I see is that see loves and admires the way I reasonably and creatively handle situations but fantasizes about me just going in and plain kickin some booty.
One thing that I have decided for sure is that I will be who I want to be and not who she wants me to be, whatever that is.
