Jenny you are exactly what I needed right now and you are absolutley right. I am going to fight harder to keep my PMA up. I will do what I was doing before he gave up the OW which is taking care of myself and making myself happy.
I did buy a couple of flowers while grocery shopping this evening and you are right again about buying myself as many flowers as I need. I am going to try to do it too. There is a large super market with a florist section that I can stop at on Mondays before work and put fresh flowers on my desk every Monday. I can do this for myself.
My H says all the right things when asked but most of the time he is his quiet self. Never was a talker though just like a lot of men. I wonder all the time what he is thinking about. Does he miss her, etc,etc. Probably don't want some of those answers anyway. I have figured out that their relationship went from good buddies at work to something more at least 2 and maybe 3 years ago. The length of their lying and cheating bothers me. I am remembering times 3 years ago that his actions are now explained by what I know now that I didn't know then.
One thing I am learning is that I have to let go of all of it. The past is the past and I got to figure out how to leave it there. It would be easier if he was not so darn quiet.
Jenny how are things going for your and your H. Is it as slow going there as it is here? I hope you are finding some peace and happiness. You deserve the best life has to offer. Thanks for being here again exactly when I needed you.
