it is I....the weary. GG suggested I keep writing here although this is not the thread for me....but you, GG, Wesse and Jenny are such life lines for me. must be the age. anyway, with GG leaving town, i hope you will check the postings for my cries for help. i am trying but not as well as you did it. with our daughters getting married the struggles and pain are so difficult. one daughter called last night wanting us to meet her at her future inlaws tomorrow. i fell apart crying, saying i can't do this without dad..i think she was disappointed. after much crying through the night i decided too bad for him...and i am going. this morning he called at 6:45 and said he couldn't go because he was moving this weekend (which I knew...from an efficiency to a one bedroom). Mind you it is all furnished...he only has his clothes and some medical books and he could do that tonight if planning his daughter's wedding (which he is paying for...at least half of it) was important. plus it is a brunch tomorrow but we could have gotten up at 7 and been there by 11 (we live in a small town) but i guess he doesn't care enough the way i do. i hope i am doing the right thing. thenthis afternoon, a few minutes ago when i was packing, he called to tell me he was about to go into the OR for an emergency and was i leaving. i said i was meeting the D tomorrow...he said was i leaving to go there tonight. i told him where i was going (to a friend) and i would leave the number on his machine. he said OK. i said he could call if he wanted to talk and then said, 'see ya.' this is a big thing for me...but i am trying. GG says if i have any hope this is it...pray for me dear ladies dear friends. i want to be on this topic someday.
