My W is away this weekend (left yesterday) to coach wrestling (I wrestled through colledge) with her high school team. It's the first nights she has been away from me since we have been back together... In the past (before our seperation) I would have been OK or even glad to have her away for a few days or a week... Now I realize I really miss her. Don't worry I do have a handle on it and the last thing I need to do is show her that I am needy.
Rich, your comment about wistful the other day really struck a cord with me. Last week our councillor said to me that she thought that I was in a lot of pain I wish I could have replied "no just wistful .
Sue, the paradox that I live is that my W looks to me for strength and courage. She expects me to be the tough one the "unfeeling" one. This is how I have lived my life up until the point that I realized what I was missing, up until we seperated due to my neglect of her. It's such a fine line to walk.
JohnK, I wonder if our W's realize the power they possess. Probably do, this is what causes them so much presssure sometimes.
Mike, I know your pain. Come here whenever you like...you do belong. Be selfish. Ask for help. There are lots of people here who have lived your nightmare and can offer support and advise.
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