“What I am trying to do right now is to allow myself the freedom to feel that my desire is good, that it is independent of H and is pure and that I am good and sexy and ok whether or not he gives a rats @ss.” Bravo! Plus, if you stop requiring his validation, then he won’t feel as pressured to give it. Though, I would not hold anything against you for smacking him upside the head if he makes any more “only wanting him for sex” comments. Good luck on the script rewrite.
By all means marry; if you get a good wife, you'll be happy. If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher. -- Socrates