Jenny, I am so happy for your progress. I think about you often and have read a few of your responses on Autumn's threads. The rebuilding is so difficult because you are always waiting for the rug to come out from under you. An apology is a big deal and the beginning of what could be happily ever after. My H didn't apologize until Dec. 10. He apologized for how badly he hurt me and told me that he was really ahamed of himself for putting his whole family through what we went through. Even though I knew things were heading in that direction, it felt really good hearing him say that. What was even more exciting is that he said he loved me and that he will never regret staying. He wonders how I had the wherewithall to keep myself going. So the other stuff will come in his time, not yours. I know how you long for this part of your life to be over with, but you know what? You have stuck it out thus far and he will admire you for how well you have kept things together in spite of his poor behavior. Maybe by Valentine's Day?????? he is starting to wake up and realize what he has, and that means a lot. Also the fact that he is still at home says a lot for where you are heading. Keep the faith and patience. My H and I are going to Lake Placid for a skiing weekend next weekend, alone without kids. This will be the 2nd time in the past 2 months!!! I think I can get used to this. Keep us updayted, and please...stay in this forum. It's great you finally made it here! Karen
