This is ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL news for the New Year/Century/Millennium!
An apology is the first step in the journey of a thousand miles, what do you think? Okay, so you've already covered 999 of those darn miles but your H is just getting started (and he's wearing new shoes so he needs a bit to break them in ).
DBing & WGtCHMing is 2nd nature for you, so just keep doing what you've been doing. Until he's ready to tell you 'I love you Jenny' how about 'acting as if' he's saying it already AND that is when your heart's desire will come to fruition.
The hurt and pain over the past year is valid. Here's something to try if you think it will work for you. On a piece of a paper, write each month of the past year in addition to the words 'my hurt' and 'my pain.' Then crumple up each piece of paper, month by month, and throw it in the trash (or burn it in the fireplace or some other method that will 'push' these feelings and/or thoughts away constructively) while taking a deep breath and releasing the breath as each piece of paper is released.
Best Wishes, as always, Jenny Baker!
[This message has been edited by pondering (edited 01-05-2000).]
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