H and I had some time to ourselves to talk. I told him I noticed he was slipping into some old destructive patterns. I didnt get specific because I didnt want him to feel I was intruding on HIS problems. He did say he knew and he was thinking about it. He mentioned that these things were all going to be part of his resolutions for the new year. I am getting really nervous because he has been getting very drunk everynight. He thinks I dont know. Its painfully obvious why a person that is suposed to be in recovery and is not, is not available to be in a relationship.
I also am starting to feel like its not all my fault I dont feel close and trust with him. I have worked on it, I have forced my self to take chances and open up and trust. He responds very understanding and wonderful and I am impressed... but later its thrown at me and used to hurt me... there fore I just cant get completely comfortable and I dont see how I am ever suposed to. Its too unstable unpredicatable.
My sil has Men are from mars... it was book she had to read for one of her classes so she is going to send it to me!!! yeah! I dont have to buy it.
