Its funny, just this morning we were talking. I told her that I was glad that I finally found out that I really loved her. She said in reply that she is happy that she gave me a second chance. In my opinion what got us going again was my 180 and PMA. I basically changed myself to be the husband that she always wanted. I knew what she wanted but was not willing to do that. Her love and happiness is coming back slowly. The other day we were sitting on the couch and she was actually not frowning for once. I even commented on it. I'm discussing my feelings with her now, something I never did in the past. I'm totally the opposite of my past self. She likes the new me.
For example, yesterday I stayed home with the four year old. He was running a fever, and I didn't want him to go to daycare sick and get stressed. So we went to see his mom at work. She works at a convenice/gas retail store as a cashier/inventory manager. In the past I noticed that she would casually touch her manager. Like she would lean on his shoulder if he was sitting down and she had to reach something over him. Other causual touching has also occurred. But yesterday she called him "baby or babe". I wasn't jealous of this touching stuff or too concerned about it until what came out of her mouth yesterday. So last night I told her that I was uncomfortable with what happened. She said that what she said slipped out and she dont know why she said it. I said I understand that you and him are friends and have to work together but it seems that you are getting to chummy and that bothers me. She made a comment like his girlfriend doesn't have a problem with me. I replied but she didn't see or hear what I did, and if she did, I imagine she would have alot more to say than I'm saying now. She didn't say nothing to that statement. Then she said if the tables were turned and if it was you acting the way I was, I would be very upset. She agreed that her behaviour was inappropiate and would change it. I felt better after our conversation. She said "Your right, its not right". I told her well, its not about who's right or wrong, its about our feelings, so there is no right or wrong, just how we feel. The old me would have never had this conversation, I would have just gotten mad and let it fester.
