I was just having a one-sided conversation in my head with H. I was telling him..... "Wouldn't that be nice? If I could do something, say something that would make you feel sure about reinvesting in this marriage? It would be great to have a level of certainty about the outcome wouldn't it? But the fact is, love is a choice and it is your choice alone. Love is a risk and there is nothing I can do or say that is going to completely minmize that risk for you. Same thing as dating someone new....they don't do or say anything that makes you feel 'sure' that you can trust them or that your heart is safe with them....you take the risk because you believe that it will be worth it. So, all I can do is tell you that I love you and that I am so very sorry for breaking your heart and that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, never forgetting the hard lessons I've learned and never taking you or our family for granted again. And with that being said, I hope that you can find the strength and the love inside you to help me do what it takes to save our marriage."
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
