You don't have your own thread, so I'll post to you here.
I've been reading your posts. I have to say... God, and I am going on record with this... you have CHANGED, man. And I mean it. I like what I see in you, and given your intelligence level, I actually find you very interesting.... now. As opposed to a months ago when all you were ready to do is 'strike.'
You are 'balancing.' I was going to say 'softening,' but that doesn't seem quite right, for in some way, that might imply an inaccurate label of passivity... I don't see you as passive, where before you WERE... I see you becoming so much more comfortable in your own skin... not taking things as personally, a loosening of the anger, which gives you a more objective perspective...
I am really impressed with you and your changes, at least here. Majorly so. Wamrs my heart, actually. I encourage your path, friend. I don't know if it is making marked difference in your home life, but I cannot imagine how it could not, if you are patient, and stay the course.
Heather, sorry for the high jack. Lose your sense of entitlement. I know you are frustrated... best thing to do when frustrated is to 'let go.' Give up on R stuff for awhile. Take a break from here. Keep a journal and vent there. Staying here too long without a break keeps you emeshed in R thoughts. Go and just 'be' for awhile. Give up your control. There are no 'rights' in life, just 'what is, as it is.' Lose your judgments and your assessments for awhile, just be yourself... and if you don't know who that is, go figure that out for awhile and let go of what your H is or isn't doing.
