Am I Creating a SSM Part III

[heatherg]

Thanks for being here Sheila...I needed to some reassuring words this morning.

Last night I remembered my posts with HP where we talked about how discussions make us vulnerable and I told myself I was going to open myself up about this with H, and try to invite him to tell me his feelings. He shut out the light in the kitchen last night to head to his room to watch a movie, I was already settled in on the couch. The room was dark and as he passed I said "H?" He turned around and said "What?" I said "I feel sad that you were doubtful about my wherabouts and my intentions last night. I just want you to know that my actions were not personal against either you or the R, I just did what I felt like I needed to do." He said "I don't know what to tell ya, this is not a R where you can just leave for a night". I said "I am not trying to change your feelings on the issue, I just wanted to tell you how I feel". He turned around and I said, not quite as nice, "Thanks for listening" and he walked down to his bedroom and shut the door.