Thanks again. I think you guys are better than therapy. I am still looking for SBT person. Have one more lead.
H called this morning. when we talked last night I asked him since I have been oversleeping and am fighting a cold. He said he would be busy today and would call later. I said great. he has to take care of something for our neighbors who are away for the winter and he asked me to leave him a note explaining everything. Along with the note, I told him I hoped he had a good day off. That he worked hard and we appreciated it. that i hoped he would rethink moving to a bigger place (he is in an efficiency) due to finances...and taking JW's advice, said, I love you..have a great day. We will see if he calls. I feel like I get no support from my kids or anyone here. Can't find anyone who has been separated and then back together. The single women I know are not real positive. One teacher at school said 'we learn to survive.' But I don't want to survive the rest of my life...I want to be living a good and happy life..hopefully with my H...but he is so stubborn and closeminded. He has always been stubborn but never close minded about anything....I am scared. But, I didn't cry last night and that was good. Sometimes I think it is sad that I think working out our marriage will be the answer to things...but I know it will be. He said he was lonely...but I know he has friends. usually on tuesday he goes out since it is his day off...so i am prepared if he doesn't call...i just want a chance to show him what he is missing...but his attitude is like last night when he brought dinner over...'don't think because i am bringing dinner here i am coming home.' my hopeful heart says to hang on to that action since he didn't have to...he could have called to discuss the problem with #3...why aren't there answers to this mess.
I know my H will not listen to tapes. he won't even go to counseling....and when he says he has tried, i have to ask him how...i can't remember him saying, let's change this or do that...he just retreats into his cave and that is trying....
