WAW did not want to take a ride on the Harley and that stuck. However, GAL values prevail! So Saturday, got up early, went to the gym (still hurting today...gooooood) and went over a friends to borrow his bike. Wrote a note to WAW that I was going. Borrowed his 2003 Herigtage Softail and I can tell you, rides nothing like the ol' SV650. MUUUUCCHHH heavier but a great ride overall. Took the "longway" home and the kids were all giddy. Fun. Ended up working around the house with WAW (we got some good stuff done), the took S8 for a ride - HE LOVED IT! It was great - and then I heard those words that move us all to the core. "I love this dad, just you and me - out on the hog". Great stuff from my little middle man.
Did the same on Sunday with the older one as I was riding the bike back. He too loved it - was all giddy and chatty the whole way. Too much!
So, here is where it gets wierd. Months back WAW's head was coming out of her rear end, we talked about "starting over" and what that would mean. We talked about moving to a new house, shedding the past and all that stuff. About renewing our vows, etc. And I totally agreed. So, Saturday, the house thing pops up. She says "you have to see this house I found" so we go on-line and check it out. I have to admit - it's perfect. It's in the HIGH end of our range, but it really is everything that we would like in a house. Big yard, character, etc. So we go and look at it yesterday. BIG MISTAKE because we fell in love with it almost immediately.
So, I'm left with this sense that this could really mean a new start - but I also KNOW that we have not made the kind of progress that I would have hoped we could have made - but how can you tell. In the end, and now really looking where her head is at and how little she has grown over the past year, the last thing I want to do is get into something that is that much more stressful for her and therefore the happiness is short lived. And of course, we'll be a bit house poor for a short time, so her hopes of making fixes, etc. will have to be much more planned than they are today.
Our mutural friend thinks it's time to have the "where are we" discussion with WAW. I mean, if we are going to move forward, I think I have a right to know. I'm seeing an arrangment like my cousin has (she is actually divorced, but she and her X still live in the same house and are doing so "for the kids"). Crazy. I'm not goint to sign up for that kind of celibate arrangement. I WANT and expect more. Things therefore on that front are still a bit chilly.
Mind you, when she said we could go out for dinner instead of ride this weekend, I bought her something I wanted her to wear - and told her so. She was apprehensive at first, but when she saw what I bought her, seemed to mellow a bit. That was good. And she did like the clothes...
So anyway...we march along - a little uncomfortably - but seems to be going somewhere....
I'm going for a lunch walk....
Sven
Never sacrifice the great for the good. Sometimes the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.
