Well again its been a couple weeks since my last post and I can say things are still mixed - more positive than negative I'm feeling, but still feel like the big test is on. A couple weeks back, I felt we were onto some real breakthroughs – the hand holding, the wearing of wedding bands, etc.
Nothing has much changed – or nothing specific I think – really just still have an unsettled feeling – again not predicated by anything other than a seeming lack of forward progress. Mind you there is still a fair amount of stuff going on – WAW has a new business starting that has her straight out getting ready to open, she is working part time aside from that and the kids are out of school. It’s a lot to take in….so she is pretty stressed.
We’re still close – took the boys to dinner at the restaurant she works at last Friday night – she was fairly lovey dovey – the occasional kiss as we made our way through our meal. All good. We crashed on the couch Saturday night after she worked but she was gone all day Sunday at her store so I messed around with the kids before leaving to come where I am currently sitting in Ireland for business.
We talked when I arrived on Monday and she called Monday night about an hour after I went to bed (I had been up for 37 hours so I was a wreck when she called – completely comatosed). We didn’t talk yesterday – I had called and left a couple messages and that is stressing me a bit today, but I head home tonight (thankfully). Ireland is beautiful if any of you get the chance, go visit.
It might be too that because we are so busy that we are falling into a “comfortable” mode which admittedly I don’t like. Also, we haven’t been able to get to the MC for a month now and I would have preferred to do so – but again, scheduling has been tough. In order to kick myself out of it, I plan on taking her to the movies tomorrow night – as a bit of a surprise date and next week will start making dinner on Tuesday nights (she doesn’t work), serving after the kids have gone to bed and insisting we have desert in bed…see where that leads…
I’m dying to more forward with intimacy – and need to approach her I think on this one. I was “dinged” for not being more intimate/romantic in the past and now have a flood of this I want to start bringing forward (slowly mind you) – but do want to be mindful of the timing….
Perhaps when she gets home from work tonight and since I will have returned from Ireland, I’ll just tell her “I’d like to kiss you….” And see where it goes…
Onward and upward….
Sven
Never sacrifice the great for the good. Sometimes the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.
