AK, thanks as usual. Sorry I missed you guys last week. I got the 411 from C4H last night. Sounds like it was fun....
Strength and Honor.
Last night was a non-event which is perfectly okay. I did the right thing and went to the gym, had a nice run and did some arms and chest. Breathe…..
As usual, “enlightenment” returned. I reminded myself that this is a journey, not a destination. Why am I doing this? Because I want to save my marriage. There are and will be TONS of hurdles. These days are one of those hurdles. But, as we all know (or should), we should be spending our time “measuring” ourselves – how did we act (not REACT), behave, and have we changed our WAY of communicating. So how am *I* changing the way that I jump those hurdles.
So, why WAS I letting her disrupt *MY* universe!? I am STRONGER than that. And, I have more HONOR. Her “attitude” and all that is the result of HER stuff, not mine. She is the one that is confused, not me.
My realisation is that there needs to be a direct link between the communication and the action (Thanks TJ!). Meaning, it would have been a death trap to have stepped into and R talk – and to nag. So, I reread M/V last night on what to do when a venusian is in her well – and continued with FMO (which foolishly I left on my nightstand – wonder if she will find, but I am NOT worried). I am now ready to confront issues when the next one comes along.
I’ll continue the metamorphosis for *me* - that means walking around again with a big arse smile on my face – first. Igniting my passions first (of which is being a great husband, making sure I get to the gym, get back to some guitar lessons [ordered a new amp!]), and keep workign the landscaping at the house) and work completely toward that end. WAW will eventually notice – actions speak louder than words.
As it turns out, WAW ended up meeting with her new business partner last night and they decided on a name to the business. While she was out, I did house stuff (cleaned up after dinner, cleaned the living room, installed an air conditioner and folded some laundry). As I did so, I did it with a big smile on my face (except when installing the A/C – it’s a 12,000 BTU unit and weighs a ton!). I am home. I am SVEN.
When WAW got home, she woke me all excited because they came up with a business name. Although half awake, I was very happy for her and told her how proud I was of her. She thanked me for my help (I had negotiated with a lessor on where the business will be located). This AM, I told her how excited I was for her and gave her a big hug – and got one back. Slow, gentle. Patience.
I’m getting back on track folks. It’s going to be a great weekend.
Never sacrifice the great for the good. Sometimes the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.
