KarenMP, your story really touched me. If you don't mind, woiuld you share more of what it took to get where you are now?
So many things you said hit home, made me think--especially "I have taught my husband what unconditional love is. I have taught him that, yes damn it, love is enough. The being in love part comes and goes throughout the marriage. We just have to learn that when it goes we have to find it within ourselves to make it come back..." and "I have learned not to bring up the past, especially to hurt my H in any way,shape, or manner. He suffered through this as much as I did..." It's so hard for me to understand that my H suffers as much as I do. Is guilt as painful as being betrayed? I don't know--and I never will, because I will never betray him.
You also mention your sex life being slow to recover--how did you get this far? Was he the disinterested one (as in my case)?
In another folder in this forum, Wesse (I think) said that she gets bitter and hates it--me too. Any tips on how to get over the bitterness?
Thanks to all of you who bare your souls to help other here!
