Quote: You'll only need to deal with yourself (and what fun that always is! ).....
Um, yea, that's the problem. I really believe that this is only a problem if I make it one. I say that because I think she WILL admit the PA soon and make this a moot discovery. I will then be free to express all my hurt and anger.
What I am most afraid of right now is not talking to her, but rather that I WILL talk to her and it will happen because I will just loose control and lash out tonight after the wedding or Sunday. I don't want that to happen. I just hope I can maintain when I see her. I avoided her last night and that's how I dealt with it then. I won't be able to do that for long before she starts asking questions and when that happens...trigger...boom. I want this to happen when I am most ready but then again, I know by now that it usually doesn't happen that way.
Quote: Do NOT let this steal your joy.
I am grasping for that right now. I feel no joy in this moment...maybe the next...or the one after...
