Well if you already had processed those emotions of a PA then I don't feel you would be reacting this way to finding a receipt. I think no matter what you tried to convince yourself the R with OM was, still part of you held on the hope that it was just an EA.
To be up front about this for you, OT, and others, of course this is true. I WAS in some denial about it but I think if I really didn't KNOW it was a PA, I would NOT have been able to walk up to her 2 minutes after finding the reciept and engage her in chit-chat on my way upstairs to begin posting last night. I had more anger and pain when she wore that shirt to bed the other night than finding this reciept.
Oh, and OT, I AM pissed at the piece of paper...lol.
Quote: So you are hit with evidence that says it was a PA, by your reactions I don't think right now you are in a place to talk with your W about this. Right now you need to process this inside yourself first.
I know I am not in the right place to talk to her. I don't know if when I get to that place, I will still want/need to do it. Does that make sense?
Quote: I agree with the Others, for your R with your W to move forward she needs to come clean with you, and lay it all on the table.
You also agree with me then. I know she needs to come clean. I have always said she would do that eventually. I still beileve that, probably now more than ever.
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I also agree with your assessment about your W stress, I am sure this is why? You will know in a few days when the time is right, you will also be in a better emotional state to talk with her and DB your butt off during the convo.
