Ladies and gents, I am really struggling with this one. Part of me agrees with OT and some of you that say to talk to her soon, or tonight. If I do, I have no idea what I would say and I really feel that it goes against what I have stood for in my sitch for so long. That said, I still feel a pull to do this.
Part of me, the part I usually make decisions with, agrees with the rest of you who advocate that I continue on DBing and not push the R talk right now. This is what I want to do but I am not yet sure of it.
I know OT, Mama, Rob, NM, SS, and all the rest of you want what's best for me. I SO appreciate your advice and support.
In the end the most true thing posted about this, and really any other thing I face, is that it is ultimately MY decision to make and I will do that very soon and then live with the consequences of that decision because I do not have the luxury of dwelling on this for days.
Please, any more comments are welcome. I posted some responses to some of your posts, so feel free to follow them up.
