Not to be disrepectful in any way here, but I think you put too much into what OT thinks of you. While I think she is very straightforward and knowledgeable she is NOT you. In the end, only you know what is right for you and yor W. I know you value everyones opinoins and advice here but this must be a decision that you make on your own. You seem to be doing a very good job at handling it so far. Keep the faith!!