It's been awhile since I called out for help, but I really need it now as much as ever. I am shaking.
I was doing laundry for my wedding shoot tomorrow and W asked me to put some stuff in for her. As usual, I was cleaning out her pockets and found a reciept. It was not folded so when I pulled it out, I could read it...and I did for some reason. There were a few things but the last thing was a pregnancy test. I looked at the date and it was dated for early this month.
I had to walk right past W and I don't think I gave her any clue what I just found. I even chatted with her before comming up here.
I don't know what to do. As I always tell you, this doesn't change anything other than now I KNOW for a fact that she's had sex with him, and since we've been back from Ireland. I don't know if it was one last time, or if it is ongoing.
I am shaking so much. I think I can just move on from this but I need help. I need advice.
OT, I know one of the first things you are going to say is that now all the unprotected sex stuff comes in. Maybe it does and maybe it doesn't. My W is irregular and thought she was pregnant when we were having sex more than a few times even though we used condoms every time. She is very paranoid about that so I don't know for sure what this means but at the very least, it shakes me badly.
I think if I confront her with this she will even try to lie and say it's for a friend so I am hesitant to do that because I don't know how I would react.
My instinct tells me to try as hard as I can to give this some more time but it is REALLY hard to keep this one to myself. Do I confront her? Do I DB and just take my own advice of not letting things that don't really change the sitch affect me? Does the really NOT change my sitch?
The sex COULD have taken place before our recent talks. That's the hard part. If I react strongly to this, like my emotions want me to now, I may be reacting to something that is past-tense but what if it's not? I am confused.
The worst part is that KNOWING, even though I said I knew, is affecting my ability to "act as if" and do all my touching etc. She will notice that and so then what? I feel stuck somewhat.
