GH, from reading your posts you are really beating yourself up about this. Please stop! For one, I think any man that would put up with so much crap and do so much for the woman he loved is just a fantastic person in my eyes. And you know what, if this whole chapter of our lives never happened we would just be living these totally unconscience (sp) lives. All of this $hit has made us wake up and smell the coffee. A year ago, would you have actually had any of these thoughts. Would you have really analyzed your R and your sex life? I bet not. So if anything, all this garbage, as painfull as it is, has made us MUCH stronger people. Be thankful for that. Rejoice in yourself. Be proud of your integrity and know that every night that you go to bed that you are a stand up guy. You love your wife and all of her faults and you are there for her and your children and that your will not compromise your morals. Be at peace with yourself and your situation. In time, everything will work itself out. As much as I hate to say it, take a break from here. We will miss you terribly but you need to focus on something else for a while. Love ya, Mama
