Well, today was the first day of my W's "no driving" month due to her pending DUI case. That means daddy gets to take the kids to school every day. So far, so good.
As for the homefront, things are not changed from a week ago, hence the lack of posts this week.
I am still frustrated at the lack of intimacy/affection but constantly confused at whether it is something holding over from the A, i.e. guilt or whatever, or if this is just my W going back to the same intimacy-less marriage we had before all this. It matters to me because one demands patience and the other action. I have said this before.
If she is still getting over the A and whatever feelings she had/has about him/it, then I can wait until she gets to a place where she is comfortable. So far, every indication is that she is not at all.
If she has gone back to business as usual mode, then I need to either talk to her and make it clear that I am not going to accept that as our status quo anymore, or I need to SHOW her that I am not. I think I have already shown her that I want things to be different but I have taken that as far as I think I can without understanding more about where she is in her mind/heart.
So, here I am, in a MUCH better place than when I started all this and ready to move forward to a place in my R with my W where I can fully express my love for her AND she does likewise for me.
