IS MY MARRIAGE WORTH SAVING???

[hurtingagain]

Hind sight is always 20/20. Like I said earlier, I didn't know about 70% of this until Feb/March this year.

I lived with H and he hid so much of himself from me that I really didn't know the extent of his secret life. Also, being an addict himself, he learned to hide things and function so people didn't know. So I won't apoligize for trying to keep my family together. I loved my H and D16. But as we've found out love is not enough. During much of my M, I relied on God to get me thru. Unfortuneately thru my trials, I felt God had given up, too. I know that's not true, but my heart felt it. Just like my heart felt love for my H (though I've been able to see the true him, a loser). As many have, I settled, saying this was my life and try to be strong.

I see I must step up to the plate and be the parent my D16 needs. I'm working on establishing rules in MY house. She has chose to stay at H house the last 4 nights.
Bottom line is I CAN'T control my H or D16 and I'm NOT responsible for their choices. D stinks and this whole situation stinks. I must rely on GOD and will seek HIS guidance because this is bigger than I can handle ALONE.

Thanks for taking time to read and comment!! God Bless....