I could feel the pain in your last couple of post, I am sorry...
Quote: I've got to stop feeling that her and her dad conspire against me as they have in the past, though I DO have reason to feel this way. I need to be dependable, upbeat and there for HER.
Yep, That is a good reason to try and find the strength to get yourself stronger. I know in my sitch my 2 girls are what has kept me going at times.