IS MY MARRIAGE WORTH SAVING???

[hurtingagain]

H moved our 2/18/06, lived with his brother. Bought him a house. UHaul showed up at 8:30 am to take half my stuff. It was a hard day. My D16 moved her queen size bed to his house and I'm not sure if she'll end up living there or not. So many issues to our whole family.



After fight with D16 over weekend, I'm AFRAID she'll decide to live with dad. I'm working now and dread going home to that empty house with little furniture and NO-one there. Luckily I stayed busy at work to keep my mind off of it and not cry all DAY.

I was thinking how little we had when we married 23 yrs ago and when I go home, I'll have a little more than we did then. Ironic. THIS WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE THIS WAY!!!! We had retirement dreams, traveling we were going to do. D16 going to college, we're struggling to get her thru high school now.

MY heart is so broken. This will be my first time alone. I do have moments I think how great unexpected things could happen, but right now just that FEAR. What will I do with myself with all this time and no-one to take care of.


I talked to my MIL today and she was very supportive. Talking about how much like his dad he was, (his dad died when he was 3), so just from genetics. My SIL was telling his mom stuff H told her already. FUN!! FUN!!

Any of you have advise on settling money while separated. I think he'll leave me to pay the house payment and all bills since he NOW has his own house to pay for and all. I carry the health insurance and have some bills from my checking account auto-paid. I only work part-time so I'm concerned making ends meet.

I think he'll try to get D16 to live with him so he doesn't have to pay support and wants to watch me SUFFER and go thru more hell. I imagine he'll push me to file, though I've told him he needs to start thinking how he can get me cash out of our equity so we can divide stuff.

So in the future, I imagine he will file or force me to. He wants to use the same lawyer to save money. I told him like it's just a piece of paper and it's never meant anything to him, since he's cheated our entire marriage. So I don't see it keeping him out of the sack with other WOMEN.

Good night, time to face that empty house and my EMPTY heart.