Always, I'm here and have been reading your posts, just haven't had much time to respond. Hormones wreak havoc on my emotions too. Take a deep breath. Practice acceptance for the things that happened in your marriage that you cannot go back and change, tolerance for the limbo you are in, detachment, forgiveness for your H and yourself, compassion and generosity.
Remember, things take time. Persevere. The only way you can fail is to give up.
